Its now or never !!!!!

Last day of 2008!

I dedicate this year to the people working in Regional Passport Office Bhopal.2008 for me could have been a complete nothing for me without them.If I have really achieved something this year it was nothing else but my passport.Although I have lost the most treasure possession in getting my passport but I am really glad that I got it.There are many incidents that prove to be a turning point in people's life.Incidents that may change there life forever...I am amused to see that it was my passport that changed my life.I would like to thank the people in police department Bhilai and Chennai for speeding up the procedure.The bribe was just a token of respect from  me....Their work or whatever they did was actually priceless...

It all started in Feb 2008 when I got a letter from passport office Bhopal regarding problems in my passport application.And then started the quest to fulfill their Utopian values of work culture.Travelled several times to Bhopal from Chennai,Bhilai and Surat in order to satisfy them.

I travelled in Ac 3 tier,sleeper class,second class in trains....got chased by dogs....almost got mugged by some people outside Bhopal railway station who were trying to sell lucky stones...Stayed alone in chennai for more than a month awaiting to fullfill the police enquiry.

And finally in the month of september I got my passport despite losing many things in my life.But I am glad that I really struggled to get something in my life.I really worked hard for getting my passport.For many reasons I feel the quest made me tough.It made me face the unthinkable.

I hate my passport for many reasons...I dont like my pic in it...I dont like its color...I dont like its pages..But I still feel that I may like it in the future for the sole reason that nothing else but my passport alone changed the course of my life...

Hats off to the guys at Regional Passport Office Bhopal.U really did a great job in creating a  mess in my life.I really dont know for whom I am writing this Blogpost... But I do wish someone changes...Me,passport people,police or SOMEONE else..........

Change is no longer my friend!

Change sucks.....

Ok the change in my life sucks....

I go to a Railway station and there's a lady's voice announcing the next train to Zion is late by one hour! I want it changed, it does change,but now the lady announces....its late by two hours....

hell......!!!!!!

I see certain people moving towards left...I want them to move right...but they change their position and starting moving forward.....

I see certain people moving towards me...i dont want them to move closer....but they do move closer.....

I hear people talking,I want a change in them...I want them to keep quite,but they start shouting....

I move out from my home and find a cool breeze blowing...I dont want it flow to change...but it stops.....and there's the change I never wanted..

I want certain things to change...it doesnt change.......

I want certain things to never change but it changes....

It sucks.....

wish u all a very merry Xmas....

hope Santa Claus doesnt change and start stealing gifts from children.....

Celebratory Kiss!!!

I read a magazine long time ago and there was an article about the most famous kisses .I couldnt  forget this pic at all.It was VJ Day 1945 at the Times Square, New York.What was so special about this kiss??? The sailor and the nurse in that pic never knew each other.They were complete Strangers.It was photographed by Alfred EisenStaedt on 14th Auguat 1945 or the Victory over Japan day. He was  photographing the rapidly changing events during the V-J celebration when suddenly he saw a sailor running along the street grabbing every girl at sight young or old and kissing them in the same way...Alred could tok many pics but none of them satisfied him. And then he noticed this Nurse wearing a white uniformed and concentrated on her and just as he hoped the sailor came and bent her and kissed her. Alfred said the dress colour made the photograph special-The black and white combination.

Years later the girl in that pic came forward to say " I let him kiss me cause he had been in war and fought it for me" 

Neither the girl nor Alfred had time to ask who that sailor was? Both were lost in the moment that was like a dance step for that girl and an ultimate moment of celebration for the photograper.

Since 2005, every year on VJ day, the Times Square Alliance invites couples or strangers to come make out in the same spot as this nameless pair did just 63 years ago.

PS: Now I think what would have happened if a similar thing would have happened in india after the recent mumbai terror strike ended?

No one can survive becoming a legend!!!

A great rock and roll musician,a singer,a songwriter,an author,an actor,a hippie,an almost god,a living legend and a lot more.What can I write abt the First Beatle...-JOHN LENNON.

There are many people who lived and died long before you took birth.Some of them will make you feel that you could have born early so that u could have that golden chance of living in the same era as those great people...John Lennon is one such person for me.The man who created the greatest rock n roll band of all times-THE BEATLES.

The reason why i choose to wrote something about him is bcoz on -8th December 1980 thats 28 yrs ago.A troubled and psychotic man named MARK DAVID CHAPMAN who for his own reasons chose to live in the fictional world of Holden Caulfield a character of a novel and really changed the world by shooting the most loved man during that time.The reason???Even Mark doesnt know why he did it who am i to answer this question?

I guess "No one can survive becoming a legend".........

I feel he stills lives inside all of us who have listen to him.There are  moments that make me feel happy,sad,excited,lively,spiritual and what not....and when i listen to him/beatles it makes feel good.

A tribute to a great man who till this day continues to inspire me and a million others through his songs and music and the band he created, the band he destroyed....Zindabad the legend of JOHN LENNON..

Jailbird gets crazy !!!!

Thank God I have not been to jail. I never wanna go there.But I think about jail a lot. I don't know why. I think about how big my cell would be. How many push-ups I would do?How many days I ll spend there if at all I am sent there for some reasons?What kind of drawing I make inside the walls of my cell?Will I finally decide to write some book about my totally useless life?

What kind of books will I read, fiction? Non fiction? Religious? or Philosophical? What will I talk in the social meetings that happen inside the jail like it was shown in the movie HANCOCK.

Will I be able to bribe the jail authorities to keep a TV with TataSky+ inside my cell....I am Sure i ll be able to recharge it thru some work inside the jail. Atleast a Sony PSP..?

The reason i think a lot about being inside a jail is because I live alone anyway. My room is so small that it resembles a lot like a furnished cell, it's kind of the same. I'm in solitary.

How can someone like me not think about jail? Every night on TV I watch people going there.

They must be some terrorist, psycho, mass-murderer even politicians and army people.

Have u notice they are always covering up their face with their hand, cloth or something.

What is this person's reputation that he has to worry about this kind of exposure by the media

damaging his good name? Is he waiting for some joining date from a big software company or a nod from some guy who's daughter liked him?

He's afraid that the software company HR is going to catch this on TV and go, "Isn't that DFcuk Singh but no king from SSCET BHILAI? He was up in that railway station eve teasing some girls that werent actually good looking. I don't know if that's the kind of boy we want in our software divisions. He should be in BPO."

Or possibly he may be afraid that his galfrd's dad may watch this on India Tv and hear from his stupid daughter " See dad, I told u he isnt Gay....he proved his sexual orientation... now let me marry this guy"

ooops thats it.... cant write anymore....Sometimes a 25 kg fist is much stronger than a pen or a keyboard(2 years warranty) worth Rs300...

hope the guy with 25 kg fist doesnt read this....

Please Flap Your Wings!

They say a butterfly flapping its wings in one part of the world can cause a thunderstorm in a desert or avoid a cyclone else where.Scientist call it the Butterfly Effect for explaining how slight changes in the initial conditions of a system can effect it in the longer run of that system.this is really complex....

In simple words, people believe that when a Butterfly flaps its wings there are small yet significant repercussions on winds direction and strength.which may eventually coz a weather change somewhere in the world.The media has managed to make "the butterfly effect" as a catch phrase.They use it to describe any small event that cause a big change.Movies based on the butterfly effect as apply it to time travel.Butterfly Effect(2005) film is abt the possible negative changes that small behaviors in the past could have on the future, if one could time travel. The hero travels back in time and attempts to change certain things in his past.Although his intentions were good,he fails miserably when he returns back to the present time.It tells us that everything that we do or try to change may trigger a small reaction in our life's which may significantly change the future.There's one more movie in which the hero goes back in time to stop Adolf Hitler's rise but when he returns back to present time,Joseph Stalin becomes the new villian of the world. Thats all i can do to feel better about my miserable life.I dont wanna go back to my past n redo things so that my present is better than what its now.I am satisfied with what i have now but all i am worried is my future...what does it have for me.I am awaiting a change or event that will bring in good results.I dont know whether the butterfly that will cause positive changes in my life is dead or not yet come out of its pupae stage... GOD make that butterfly flap its wings.....I wanna a change.....I dont wanna live this way...

The Real Change!

u cannot solve it but just deal with it..
u cannot change it but feel it...
u cannot make it stay nor let it go...
its just it..

so be as it is...

u change and your life changes so does the dream..

but is the instincts still happy with it??...

think..be happy...for the soul to be satisfied..

if it isnt then..the dream u r dreaming is just void. 

-anonymous n rare desert rose which cums once a yr

The Guy at the Cafe Coffee Day!!

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I wanna a new Mobile!

Well,this pic was taken somedays back inside an elevator with mirror finish ceiling! Was nt satisfied with the pic quality.this one was the best of all attempts.After i came back home i uploaded the pics on my pc and was devasted to see how bad they were.

So I have decided its time to get a new Gadget! I dont want to be a professional photographer but there are certain moments in my life which i wanna capture and store it so that it can be relived...and my phone helps me in doing that. But this phone has its limitations....has no flash and its a 2 megapixel...and that was the only reason the elevator moment hasnt been captured well......i know prices og digicam have gone down and they ll help me in my fulfilling my desires.But mobilephone have an advantage..they are so portable and provide other advantages also...

So all i need is a new Mobile phone...Nokia 5610 or that sony ericsson's 5 megapixel camera or atleast k 800i !

The problems with getting the new phone are.....

1) I have this good track record of researching with gadgets n have succesfully managed to disable the real functionality of the gadget! The old tape recorder now just gets the tapes tangled up and no longer plays them! So my dad will never pay for the phone!

2)The Second phone (nokia 3230) i had was actually the first phone officially given to me by my parents! The first one was a 2nd hand reliance one i brought it myself by saving my pocket money! within 1 year of my ownership both were stolen.So i am irresponsible.

3)My Mom has told me clearly that she isnt going bring up the phone bill when she talks with dad!

So it means i have to buy it myself! But the present allowances given to me is enough to support ccd.McD,movies and other bills. I need to earn if i want to have a new phone.

So i would urge my employer to call me soon so that i will work hard satisfy them take my salary and go to mobile stores and get my new phone!

I may sound selfish, but atleast i am thinking about these mobile store ppl....so god help me....

get my joining date soon!

Fashion:Electric chair treatment

well today i saw the much awaited movie.My friend bungi, who should be know as debo in the future said its gonna be a gr8 movie. All that madhur bhandarkar stuff and all traffic signal,corporate blah blah blah......Finally after failing to secure tickets at Valentine and Rajhans,we got 3:15 pm shows tickets at Fame. It was hardly 1 pm then.so we went to domminos and spent some 1 n hafl hours eating 2 pizza and one garlic bread...

when finally we entered the hall it was an Kodak moment,it was first time in surat when we went to watch a movie and the theatre was full of people. Usually whenever we go for a movie,its hardly 30 people watch the movie with us...

But this was no other day. Full occupancy and when finally the movie started it was nothing more than an electric chair treatment.The story line was good but the screenplay is damn torturing slow.There are certain things that will happen very fast in the movie like priyanka chopra getting in close with azad contracter(the guy in the movie guru,sorry i dont know his real name).

one thing that i really liked in the movie was watching Mugdha Godse, whenever she came on screen i was back to my spirits....she was the one keeping me alive through the movie.

this movie also has komal chottala(chak de gal from haryana) in a small but imporant role.ya she is again tomboyish here but a little better.

all i would say that if u find Mugdha Godse beautiful and are depressed with yr life that u r not able see her on tv then book the tickets for this movie.

33% of the movie was based on gay relationships in the fashion industry. That was the main element out of which the director wanted to bring comedy into play. Initailly it was good but after a while everybody was finding it boring..

i feel the timing of this movie was nt good ! majority of the indians still dont think abt the fashion industry! i still dont want to know,who is india's supermodel...or dont go crazy to find who's the model in that new ad...its all bollywood and cricket. Brands are still promoted best by bollywood stars and cricket players. News channels try very hard to promote lakme fashion week and all but still we are not bothered! This industry is still for the very few in india,especially the super rich!

And i doubt all the film critics are afraid of madhur bhandhar,that they give good ratings for his movie. This guy is always making films about real world things that the critics are concerned that they are on madhurs next list.

i ll be really happy to know what these film crictics do and how they interact with each other.

i dont know how all the critics settle down for one rating.mostly they give same point for all movies...i think they copy others view.

As expected this movie again had the characteristic neutral ending that usually happens in Bhandarkars movie.

alright i sleepy now......cant right any more......going to sleep.

My Mobile Phone!!!!!

I've come to the conclusion that there are certain moments in your life which will always come and you just have to accept it. You ll have them even though you don't really

want to experience them. You don't create them, but somehow they will be created.

The problem with life is that nobody stops you from creating the wrong moments. I

think life would be a lot better if it was like you're always making a movie.If you get into a bad moment,

you just shout "Cut!!!!" and start over again....

Think of the things you can avoid. You're going to an eatout and your girlfriend comes there in a weird Tee Shirt expecting a compliment from you.Without knowing this you say "Boy!, you look like a joker, where the hell you got that tee from??"and you have blown it off....

"Cut, cut, cut, cut, that's not going to work

at all. Walk out the eatout, come back in, let's take this whole scene again."

People, think about what you're saying.

Have you ever called someone up and you're disappointed when they answer the

phone? You wanted to give a missed call.You had nothing to say....you were just probably building up something for the future. And then you have go, "Oh! I uh, I, didn't know you were there, I just wanted to say, 'Sorry I was just fooling around.i didnt really mean that tee remark'"

So with this mobilephone, what you can have is two people that don't really

ever want to talk, and the mobile phone is like this relationship counsellor keeping

these strange relationships alive. Why do we do this? Because when we

wakeup in the moring we want to see that little electronic device, "All right, messages. missed calls"

People need that. It's very important for human beings to feel they are popular and

well-liked amongst a large group of people that they have no interest in.

I love my mobilephone.There's just so much great things about it. I wish I was a mobilephone too.

I wish if I saw someone outside whom I dont like and can create a bad moment I could just go, "Excuse me, I'm either switched off or moved out of coverage area .You can just leave a message on my voice messages, I ll walk away and get back to you.

I also dont like my mobilephone for a reason.Because you can't slam

down a mobilephone,unlike the landline phones.

If you get angry at somebody on a landline phone, "You can't talk to

me like that!" BANG, it's over. But a mobilephone....you cant bang that precious thing.....its not practical....

you ll go like--"Hey! you can't talk to me like that!

All right now, let me just find that little red button to turn this off. . . . Just hang on, I'm

hanging up on you."

To me, nothing matches the mobilephone as a modern technological

wonder.First of all, look at how long it took before they made ones that

actually were affordable and good looking.The old moto razr costed Rs45,000 when launched.

And when u finally have it..You ll search for all kinds of new softwares....ringtones....forward messages.

And the lastest thing...phone covers and all....There will be this ever increasing demands for treats...Mcdonalds,KFC and what not....All Depends on the price of your phone....higher the price of phone better the spots....

And once something goes wrong with your phone hell breaks loose,you ll scoop them up and carry them in your arms like sick children.

You ll yell at servicemen, "What do you mean there's nothing you can do?"

This is why the mobilephone is our most important piece of technology.

How much we care about it. What other device has such an intimate relationship with you?

Who called and when, exactly what they said, how they sounded.What messages they sent.How many they sent?Even your best friend can't give you such details. Only your mobilephone stays with you as you

replay the triumphs and disappointments of the day in your memory.

i love my mobile .....people do the same.......

mobile phones are gonna stay for a long time.....

THE HAIR (BOYS VERSUS GIRLS)

My latest area of concern is my head(exterior surface)....

i am losing a hell lot of hair....and that too when i am completely jobless.

so that means i have no stress in life from a front which usually plays a pivotal role in hairfall.

and yes to make the matter worse i am free to use the adjective "premature" to hairfall...

men and women are so common,yet different when it comes to hair maintainence......

the trend today is ,most of the boys wanna have long hair and the girls going for short...

Its interesting to see how deep girls go to the hair maintenance extremes. It's really amusing to see the way girls take care of all the hair on their bodies.hair on top of the head should be smooth,silky and what not???Mathematically i think the amount of hair on head is directly proportional to the time taken for a shampoo.thats the reason girls spend a hell lot of time getting ready compared to boys. On the other hand, hair on any other places are a strict no no for the girls....

One of the great mysteries to me is the fact that a girl could pour hot wax on her legs, rip the hair out by the roots, and still be afraid of a mice n cockroaches.

Sometimes they go even further than that— electrolysis. That's giving your hair the

electric chair treatment. It's the death penalty for hair for god only knows what fault.They'll put him in a little chair, put the little

metal cap on him, give him his last shampoo, whatever creme rinse he wants. The

only thing that can save him is a power failure.

boys on the other hand go for shaving or trimming..we love to have hair any where on our body...the only thing is the amount and thats why we have them shaved or trimmed...plucking them out and creamin them out is considered barbaric.we love our hair......

Coming back to my problem,for boys, the transplant is the hair procedure of choice. The hair plug is an interesting process. It's really quite amazing. Hair that was on your shower soap

yesterday can be in your head tomorrow. How did they do the first transplant? I dont know who started it all but man whoever came up with this has done a great job.

But i have doubts regarding this procedure,i know sometimes a body rejects a vital-organ transplant it can be kidney,liver etc. Is it possible that a head could reject a hair transplant?

How embarrasing it will be for a guy who has just had a hair transplant....he goes out feeling good about his hair and suddenly his head rejects the new planted hair and everything just blows off....well although my rate of hairfall isnt that alarming that i have to go for a hair transplant today or tommorrow,but i know for sure that i ll have to go for it someday...

maybe these people behind hair transplant thing better the procedure or tell me that my head will never abruptly reject the new hair.....till then all i can do is oil my hair whenever i see that bottle....and pray to god that that it(hairfall) stops.....

The Ray Ban Advertisement!

It was love at first sight with this advertisement.

I feel everyone featuring in this ad has something telling me to do.
The guy in the rock concert afraid of no one and probably screaming out his heart driving people around him crazy along with him.

The school girl jumping out from the window of her classroom,reminds me of my school days.The only difference was i tried to get inside the classroom and ended up being caught.but that was fun!!!

The guy's probably first kiss when he notices the girl of his dreams walking past him..doesnt happen so easily in india....but yes the first kiss is something which is our birthright..sooner or later we all have it one day, and thats special.

The girl getting a tattoo on her back....now tattoos according to me tells a lot about a person and seperates him/her from the crowd.ya ppl may call them punks and all that stuff but who cares...the excitement on the girls face tells everyone that she wont care being named a punk..

The next guy who takes off his pants and jumps into a pool just to find a girl kissing him underwater...well kissing underwater!! how many people would have tried that...????

and my personal fav...the guy who has a bungee jump from a bridge which is far away from the city with noone holding him back except the earths gravity pulling him and testing the tensile strength of the rope...hope i get to do that once...

and lastly a girl who is tossed over a crowd of very happy people...probably she would have done something gr8....being famous among ppl is nice.

last but not the least! the song which is played thru the Ad...had a very tough time searching for it....finally found it...
its by Ben Kweller and the songs name is "make it up" the lyrics suits the Ad.

i didnt like Ray Ban sunglasses but after seeing this Ad..it has started appealing to me....
i feel its not what u wear seperates u from the crowd but its want u do which does the trick....
the Ray Ban ppl just wanted to show that their product is just for those daredevils.